Identity

My Life is Based on a True Story

Living life is like a choose-your-own-mystery-story. I have dreams and ideas about the direction I want to go with my writing, but I’m still not sure how all things are going to pan out. I’ve been writing for several years now, but I’ve yet to have any of my manuscripts published. 

Currently, I’ve been revising (again) my YA novel Dreams that Awaken (working title). This book is about an orphan girl living in Steampunk Northern California who encounters Jesus in her dreams. I was inspired when I read a book a few years ago about Muslims in the Middle East who are serving Allah, yet begin to have dreams of Jesus. They awaken with this desire to seek him out in the daytime. They find him and give their lives to Christ when they realize his great love for them. I was fascinated about the idea of God using our dream-time to infiltrate our hearts and minds with his presence and purpose.

I love the creative process of writing and developing characters who deal with struggles much like our own. Searching for an agent and publisher is not for the faint at heart. I’ve lost count how many times I’ve my manuscript has been rejected. It’s never fun, but it’s always an opportunity to grow. Where my manuscript stands now is much stronger than where it was last year at this time.

Speaking of last year, I’m on the cusp of celebrating my website’s one-year anniversary! I purposefully chose to launch it on July 14 because that was the day I suffered the largest rejection of my life. I wanted to do something positive on the same day that nearly took out my desire to live. It’s been a long road of recovery; seeking truth, healing deep emotional gashes, finding myself again, and remembering my identity as a daughter of the Most High God. 

My life is based on a true story. It’s messy and full of mistakes. It’s silly and outrageous, but it’s mine. I have a vision for what I’d like to see down the road, but I’m determined to not let my future dictated by my past. I took a class by Brene Brown a few years ago that helped me develop bravery and courage. I think she says it best. 

“When we deny our stories it defines us. When we own our stories, we get to write the ending.”

What are you dreaming about for your story? Is there anything in the past that’s presenting itself as a major roadblock? If so, what needs to happen to get it out of the way? Your life is based on a true story. In what area do you need to find courage to live it well? 

Find it.

You can do this.

I believe in you. 

To celebrate the anniversary of the website, will you do me a favor? Will you share this blog (or another post that you enjoyed) with a friend and invite them to follow my website? I’m so grateful for you, dear reader. 

It's Important to be Known by Name

I have two amazing sisters. When we were kids people would often get us confused. It was not uncommon for me to be called by my sister’s names by those who “knew” us. Sometimes we were even collectively referred to as “the Gardner girls” (Gardner was my maiden name). The worst was when we had a family photo for the church directory and they didn’t even bother printing our names.

It has always been important to me to be known by my name.

Sure, I have an unusual name and it’s been pronounced and/or spelled as; Janice, Tennis, and the most recent horror, Tan-dis. Is this better than not being known at all? I think it’s about the same level of disconnect. Not long ago I attended a women’s group and stopped going after 5 months because no one knew my name, even after I went to great lengths to get to know other people.

I’m not here to be anonymous. I believe we have an innate sense to be seen, heard, and valued for OUR identity, not for who we’re associated with or what we’ve done.

There was a woman who got pregnant by her boss, then fired by his wife, and thrown out into the wild to survive on her own. She was destitute and alone, and yet, God saw her in her pain and spoke hope to her situation (you can read the story in Genesis 16). God saw her and He sees you.

Maybe you need to hear this today. YOU ARE SEEN, HEARD, AND VALUED.

You are not anonymous. God knows your name. He sees you. He hears you. Press into that truth today. You matter, dear friend. 

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